Do you have any idea

Incidents leading up to this point, are just other unfortunate experiences. Based on true stories

Living on the streets as a 10 yr old child was a happy life for me. Kids on the streets with me became my best friends. like the family I never had, that understood me and we all looked after each other. We all came from the same kind of background and experienced. some horrendous experiences. But they were friends that would listen to each other as we often talked about our hurts. and talk about anything, everything, and anyone of those that inflicted abuse after abuse after abuse on us.
we often had talks like that To just get thing out of our system.

 Nights were cold. food was scarce but wasn't that much of a problem. as stealing what we wanted was an everyday thing.  We even had easy access to smokes and alcohol. piece a cake. Drugs....... well we didn't really look for it but if it was readily available, we had it.

 One weekend we decided to have a party down at the river one night so we went to get alcohol where we usually shop.  Free...  Yep!! we go to the back of the local pub. and because there were a few of us, it didn't take long to fill up a large bottle of top shelf from bits that were left in the bottom of bottles. there was a good mixture poured into 1 bottle. And  whoa!!!!  Very potent.

Down at the river that night, A couple of swigs and  we were in lala land. As time went on, and getting very happy, we saw quite a few motor bike lights coming toward us.  there was a Yell, "Gang".All I saw was everyone was up and running and I was a bit slow getting to my feet to run as well. when I felt big pair of hands grab me. He threw me to the ground, tore my clothes of f me and started to rape me.  Fear was evident. I was shaking with fear. as other members of the gang, had their turn prodding and savagely stealing my virginity at the young age of 13.

 when it was all over, they left me there to fend for myself.. Pain was excruciating and I could hardly move to get what clothes I could muster to get some kind of warmth.It was dark and I was so alone. I was in too much pain to be worried about being alone. I don't remember much after that, until I woke up in the hospital. washed, clean, warm, and fed 3 hot meals a day and even had pudding. But still very much in a lot of pain.It took me a very long time to recuperate.

Many things was happening after that ordeal, many questions. So many Ifs and what's and where's and how's. By rights I should have been dead.But God had other plan for my life.

I shared all this incident in a large church when I came to know the lord Jesus Christ as a testimony. people would come to me later and say things like, Ahhhh! heard all that stuff over and over again. Now I  ask, "DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA"   What it feels like, to be deserted by friends whom you considered to be your family,? and to be left alone in the hands of total strangers at a young age.?  JESUS did. When his disciples deserted him." DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA" of what it feels like to be raped and savagely have your virginity stolen from you at a very young age.? " DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA" how it feels To be in intense pain and suffering".  JESUS did.  "YOU HAVE NO IDEA"   Unless, you suffered the same ordeal. You don't have an inkling of an idea. You obviously missed those points.  Most importantly you missed the message that Jesus was my saviour.

Jesus gave me a heart to forgive. They didn't know what they were doing. Jesus gave me a taste of his sufferings, He gave me a taste as a young child his infliction of intense pain. a taste of his being alone. I'm privileged to encounter all that and a privilege to experience his love, his compassion.and his for forgiveness.His undying love brought me through  my ordeals and sufferings

I liken myself to the story of lazareth. how he died and Jesus went to wake him up. He called to the men that were at the entry of his tomb.  "Roll back the stone"  the stone that closed the entry of his tomb was rolled away. The Jesus called out  Lazareth, Come forward. Laz cameout of his tomb all wrapped up in his grave clothes. Jesus ordered that his grave clothes be removed and said release him. Set him free

 Then there was another Shout!! "Hine, Come forth. I came forth to Jesus wrapped in my SIN, Jesus came to me , lifted my sin, Put them upon himself and said be released, Be free.  he went to the cross took my sin with him.  There  he was nailed and he died. Thank You Jesus.  " DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA how it feels to be free.. In the bible it is written.  "Whom the son sets free, shall be free indeed"

God bless you..